While Lena Dunham and company we’re collecting their Golden Globes, Hannah and her girls were up to their old tricks… kind of.
It’s a little confusing just how much time has passed in Girls world, but the changes are drastic. Hannah and Elijah are living in platonic bliss, for the first time Marnie is floundering, Shoshanna is trying to mend a broken heart with sage and incantations and Jessa is, surprisingly, still married. Of course these changes are merely on the surface.
Hannah may be enjoying the company of another man, but she is still very much involved with Adam. It may only be the guilt of getting him hit by a truck that’s keeping her around, but her statement to Sandy about “only ever liking guys who like me” is closer to the truth. She dogged Adam for months and he wouldn’t give her the time of day and now suddenly he quite literally needs her. That’s a powerful feeling for someone with as many self-esteem issues as Hannah. She may claim she wants nothing more to do with Adam, but deep down she craves love and acceptance, which is what he’s offering, even if it does come with his usual cruelty (“When you love someone you don’t have to be nice all the time”).
Over in karma land, it looks like Marnie is on the edge of experiencing everything Hannah dealt with last season; no job, no man, and hooking up with a gay guy. After being fired from her job at the gallery Marnie met up with her mother to remind everyone that even though her life is falling apart, she can still be super judgmental and prudish. Of course underneath that bitter exterior is a wounded little girl who feels abandoned by her best friend. So what better way to deal with all those feelings than to sleep with your best friend’s new replacement for you? No, it wasn’t pretty, but it was honest, as was her selfish, destructive decision to end the night cuddled up with Charlie.
Early in the episode, in about the only bit of exposition of the night, Hannah explained that she had given up her previous bad behavior of pinning her whole life on a guy, making up dumb excuses to see him, showing up in the middle of the night, and just generally giving up her identity for any guy who gave her some attention. But by the end of the episode she was at Sandy’s in the middle of the night to borrow “The Fountainhead”.
Does Hannah honestly believe that she is the type of person who puts others before herself? Maybe, but the point is that in taking care of Adam she did attempt to change. She just didn’t like it. In the end, no matter how our circumstances change (job, no job, self-respect, no self-respect) our actions remain pretty stagnant. Some may even say that’s why they define us.
– Devin Mainville